Tuesday, 16 April 2019

Living with Autism

"Why fit in when you were born to stand out?" - Dr Seuss

Hey guys, it has been few months of not uploading a new blogpost and it's late as I was so busy with family and coursework. So as it's Autism Awareness Month, I want to try and open up on how living with Autism has affected me.
Well, this is quite a difficult topic to talk about on my blog but it’s something that I wanted to share for a long time, especially it's my first blogpost in 2019. The reason why I wanted to share my experience living with ASD was because I had friends that lived with the diagnosis for years or has been diagnosed with it late, even those with Asperger's Syndrome, PDD-NOS (Pervasive Development Disorder - Not Otherwise Specified) and ADHD. However, it's not something that I suffer from, it's a diagnosis I live with throughout my life. 

At the age of 10, I found out that I had been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD) at the early age but in real sense, I was born with it and my mum have been looking for every kind of help she could find to help and support me. This also meant that I had difficulties in learning and understanding the complexity within the subjects I was focusing on (Maths, English and Science), I always get lower marks. I would also find difficulty in understanding and combining the information from two or more senses simultaneously. This had always upset me because I thought everyone who got the highest marks in their tests were smarter than I am. 
Not to mention, that my speech was delayed until at the age of seven, meaning I had to attend speech therapy to improve my communication skills.
Another thing you may know about me is that I am a very emotional person, and I experience anxiety. I also tend not to show empathy towards people within situations, however it's not intentionally. There's more I could explain about myself, and it's that I don't know how to deal with certain situations, for instance; when two friends fall out and you don't know which to hang with, but it's not like I want to take sides, leaving me torn between them. 
I tried to be normal like other people, but I was my own self, different to other people in primary, yet again, I had friends at school, who knows and understand why I behaved differently to other people at school.

When I moved to secondary school, I wanted to go into the same school as my primary school friends but my mum thought it would be at its best interest for me to study at a special school for students with ASD/ Asperger's Syndrome with learning and communication difficulties. A school for gifted students and this school brought the best out of me and I can never thank my mum enough for making that decision.
Through year 7 to year 12, I had my struggles, but it made me become who I am as a person, and a better person, my English has improved massively, but I still have difficulties with speaking and explaining complex subjects, up until now. My interaction with friends has also improved massively. It isn't easy living with this mental health condition. Even though I loved and hated school...if I didn't go to that very school, I wouldn't have got the help and support through my learning and the good grades I wanted for my GCSEs. This was the part where I've learned how to function my disability at the end of my school years.

Through my college years, I had made a huge improvement on my learning through maths resit and Art and Design course. This is my third and last year at college and from Level 2 Art to Level 3. Who would ever thought a girl born with autism would be a student representative in my course year, yes that's me, I did it. Who knew, I would pass the november resit Maths GCSE? I got through it. Who knew this would be my last year at college before going to university? I got an unconditional offer in one of the best universities within the UK.  This comes to show that despite having autism, this will never stop me from achieving my goal.

Twenty years and I look back at the past. That past I had, either positive or negative had made me realised that I came a long way through wellbeing and learning, especially meeting people who will either understand or not. As much as I haven't believed in myself in years, I picked myself up and worked hard for myself and get the support I need from tutors, families and friends and I couldn't thank them enough for it too. Personally, being surrounded with positive vibes has helped me recently to get me where I am and I smile so much more than I used to at school, my thoughts changed gradually into something positive, to make the negative energy disappear. Now I know that I am getting the self love back, in slow progress, regardless of my disability and the past. May my past-self be left behind and focus on the present and future.

To anyone that's living with ASD/ADHD, Asperger's Syndrome or any other disability, you are smart, intelligent and amazing in so many different ways, even gifted, never let people tell you different because you can achieve something in life if you put your mind to it, through support from family members and friends as well. So don't let people put you off from doing what you love and focusing on what you want to achieve in life, especially wanting to further your education and focusing on getting a career you wanted. Remember to give yourself a break too and be your own priority, meaning look after yourself, especially loving yourself for who you are. Just because you have a learning difficulty or communication difficulty doesn't mean that you are stupid, like it's okay to learn and research things as every year goes by, nobody in this world stops learning in life. Another thing...never, ever focus on other people's opinion about you because you are unique.
Uniqueness within personality and appearance is much cooler and better than being the same as everybody else.

Wednesday, 19 December 2018

How I edit my Instagram Photos


What I genuinely love about using social networking sites such as Instagram and Tumblr is editing photographs that is either mine or a picture I have found from either Pinterest or Google Images that is linked to the aesthetic style. So you want my real honesty here guys...I strongly prefer Instagram to Facebook, so much fun to use, even though I still use Facebook, I personally find it quite boring. 

Moving on to how I edit my photographs then sharing it on Instagram, I would use this app VSCO (one of the best photo editing apps in my opinion and one of my favourites).

The filter I had used was the A6 and I reduced it to +9.0 so that the filter is not too deep (well it looks like it has so much contrast to it). To reduce the brightness on this photo, I decrease the exposure to -1.4 so that is has a quite darker atmosphere within the image. 

Here's more filter reducing here. Next I slightly decrease the contrast to -0.5 and the temperature to -0.6 so that it is less warmer.  

Finally, I increased both Tint and Grain up to +2.0. The purpose of this was just to show a bit of a retro styled image I created. 


Here's the final outcome of my edited photo for Instagram!
Another tip: If I feel that the photograph I edited is too bright or dark, I would change the exposure by adjusting the lighting of the image I took, especially a selfie of me.

Why did I choose this image of the autumn leaves? Well here's the short story guys, you would all know that I love the fall season more, like love the breeze, the leaves changing colours, its just so beautiful to look at really.  The fact I used this filter was to bring out the colours and the contrasts of the trees and leaves.

There are more photo editing apps other than VSCO I would recommend such as:

  • Adobe Photoshop Express
  • Lightroom
  • HUJI (Something I would use in some occasions, not always, however a good app to use for retro kind of filter in my opinion)
  • Snapseed (Great App to use)
If I'm being honest here, if I wanted to edit the image slightly a bit more, I would edit on Instagram by using the tools before posting it. (The reason why I don't use the Instagram filters is the fact I prefer the VSCO filters much more, plus I don't like the insta filters as well so...)

Anyways, I hope you all enjoyed this blogpost and hope you quite get the idea of how I try to keep my feed aesthetic.

Sunday, 23 September 2018

Fall Outfit + Faux Fur Jacket

Outfits from Primark and H&M

Mustard Yellow Faux Fur Jacket (Primark) - £18.00
Black Cordroy Button Skirt (Primark) - £8.00

Outfit worn: 13/09/2018

Where did I get the aesthetic autumn fashion inspiration from? I'll tell you right now...I used Pinterest to collect aesthetic images as an inspiration - (thank you Pinterest, don't know what I could do without you!)

On the whole, I really liked the way I did a triple combination of a White/Black T-shirt, Black Cordroy Skirt and Mustard Yellow Faux Fur Coat because it fits within the fall fashion and has a similar style to a grungy look too. The Faux Fur Coat is very cosy to wear during both autumn and winter term, you could actually tell by the soft and fluffy texture. Mustard Yellow became my favourite colour earlier this year as the colours are autumnal based - also summer based too.

My advice:

Always wear tights if you are wearing a skirt just in case the temperature outside is cold. Also, just in case it rains, I would personally not wear faux fur materials as it's not made for wet conditions.

Hope you all enjoyed this blogpost as you haven't seen any fashion related post of me in a long time. If you have any questions, you are more than welcome to ask.

C x

Wednesday, 5 September 2018

Almeria, Spain 2018

I always hear that Spain is a brilliant place to visit, I agreed after going to Almeria. Spain is generally a beautiful place to visit, with wonderful atmosphere, the tropical weather with breeze and a  sun, and also hearing the beautiful Spanish language and their accents.

What I enjoyed the most?

Before arriving to Almeria, I enjoyed the flight, two and a half hours to get there, looking out the window to see the clear blue sky and the white clouds above it. The people within the Thomas Cook flight was very friendly and helpful towards the passengers, especially towards younger children.

However, my time in Almeria was enjoyable because it was a chilled holiday and the atmosphere is wonderful, especially being at a beach. The tropical weather was just great and relaxing, although the temperature was scorching hot, like it was during the heatwave within the UK. Walking into the sea felt good, however it was too cold to swim in the water so I just walked. The wind caused the waves to become vigorously strong, but it was chilled to watch while on the beach. Speaking of being at the beach, there was a mixture of sand and pebbles (I personally thought it was going to be sandy, not mostly pebbly. I truly did not sign up for that!)  but overall I had a good time there.

The restaurant was pretty good, I liked the buffet that they had during through breakfast to dinner. The desserts looked very appetizing, including the fruits too. There was a dress code for the evening dinner to dress quite smart/casual. The waiters and the chefs were very easy-going and welcoming towards the guests who were staying at the hotel.

I loved the nights walks after dinner, the fresh air was needed, even though the temperature was slightly chilly but warm. Going to the shops to look around is one of my favourite things to do when I'm on holiday, especially during night times.

What I didn't enjoy?
One thing that I disliked was the fact there was no boiling kettle in the hotel room I were staying in.
The upsetting thing was that I came down with a cold and an awful cough, even before I travelled to Almeria and during my stay. Although, it got better each day while I was there.
Nonetheless, I enjoyed my holiday in the sun.

I wholly enjoyed Almeria in general, I thought it was a good for me to get out and travel again this year because I wanted to explore more places within the world. Though it was my first visit to Spain. I'm glad that this experience had came to me and to give myself a break. It was worth it during my five-day stay. Next thing you know, I may be travelling to Lisbon with my college course next year.

I would like to visit Tenerife, Majorca, Barcelona, Madrid or any other cities or islands of Spain because it is such a beautiful place to visit during holidays.

This was the best sunset photograph I had taken before I even went to go have my dinner.

As you can see my love for photography, I take numerous of shots, such as the beach, oceans, souvenir items, drawings of Justin Bieber, palm trees, sunrises and sunsets.

Sunrise photograph with silhouette of palm trees.

Thank you for reading my holiday blogpost, I hope you all enjoyed it so much. I also hope you all had a good summer holiday as well! 😃

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C x

Sunday, 29 July 2018

2nd Year at College Overall

Hey everyone, did you miss hearing from me blogging? Well I'm back now. I haven't been updating blog posts for a long time because I needed to focus on my coursework as it is a Level 3 course in Art and Design (equivalent to A-Level)  and working towards the deadline. Good thing now is that I have finished for holidays so that I can update my blog even more.

So, here I go...

Overall, my second year at college from has been a lot better and much enjoyable than my first year because I finally got to explore different techniques within observational drawings, fashion, photography and 3D design/ceramics, plus I can just focus on all my work as I have all my GCSEs now out of the way (I was shocked and happy seeing my maths results in January).
I also had an opportunity to travel to Florence with my course and Graphic students which I also enjoyed the most where we just looked around different art museums, especially seeing Michelangelo's David with his contrapposto pose and the Brancacci Chapel's The Tribute Money (fresco painting by Masaccio). The shopping and the food was brilliant, I loved it. Florence was the best experience in my opinion because it was a city of art, culture, fashion, sights and food.
However, the coursework was straightforward, but I felt that I had slipped a bit because of lack of motivation of doing the work at home. However, part of me felt that I kept going with my coursework because I wanted to do extremely well and aim higher for this first year of level 3 course, even if it's too difficult. The end results were shockingly surprising, which meant that my hard word had paid off very well. What really helped me do well this year was that I had self-discipline to wake up nearly every morning and be at college early by catching up with my art coursework before class.

What I loved about my second year at college is that there was less drama for me within the college because I stayed out of it and kept it to myself. In my thoughts, I have made a promise to myself that I would have such a great 2018, and so far, it has happened brilliantly, though there was ups and down moments but it still did not prevent me from having a good year. Within my second year at college, I had met so many new people each month, especially outside college and got along with a few that I found challenging. For all the support I was given through all the hard work and few personal issues, I couldn't thank any of my family, friends and the staff at college even more for all they have done for me.
Even though there were moments that had upset me or especially had stressed me out, I still summarise my second year at college being the best one on the whole. 
Bring on my last year at college!

                                                                     C x

Sunday, 18 March 2018

Florence - February 2018

Last week, I travelled to Italy with my college course and graphics. It was my first time I've been abroad without my family so that was a huge experience for me, though I am a quite scared of planes but I would definitely travel somewhere else on my own again. 

This is my second time I've been to Italy but this time wasn't Sicily, it was Florence. Florence is absolutely an amazing place full of art, fashion, ice creams, architecture including chapels and motorcycles. It was clearly a fabulous week for me, I'd love to go back there again. The good and the bad thing about it is if you are between age 18 and 25, you would have to pay for the entry to museums at a reduced price.

6th February 2018

That day was a very exhausting day, you know why? Travelling to Luton Airport by a coach for about 45 minutes or an hour, going through the security at the airport for the health and safety reasons and waiting for the gates for Pisa to open. Before that, I had a good hot chocolate and cinnamon bun from Starbucks. After that, I finally got on a plane to Pisa for approximately 2 hours and a half. After arriving, I had to get my luggage from the Pisa airport then get the coach to the Bonifacio Hotel. It took about an hour to get there in my opinion.

When we all arrived at the hotel, we got to our rooms and settled in because of how tired we were from travelling.

Mercato Centrale, where we eat for our evening meal for all four nights in Florence. Loved everything there, especially the cheering and shouting while watching football on the last night. Otherwise, I loved the food and the ice cream at that place, I am telling you all seriously that the food there is delicious. 

Breakfast was from 7.30am until 9.30 at the hotel. The breakfast was really nice there, and my gosh there was a pancake machine as well! 

7th February 2018

You can see I love taking photographs of architecture because they were beautifully built and the use of broken colours. Especially pastel colours of the walls of the outside buildings.

There are also more architectures, interiors, artworks and leisures coming on this blog posts for all the four days as you keep scrolling down.

The Birth of Venus

The Primavera (The Spring)
Medusa by Leonardo Da Vinci

The Uffizi Gallery was a brilliant art museum, it has included nearly all of the artists that I've learned about, mainly the Renaissance artists.
The perfume shop (Officina Profurmo - Farmaceutica di Santa Maria Novella) was extraordinarily beautiful to go into. The smell of each product such as perfumes, candles is perfect. I could even return to that place the next time I visit Florence again. 

8th February 2018

Verrocchio's David

Donatello's David 

Santa Croce 

I love these decorations of these posts, very creative. What I actually love about Florence. 

Michelangelo's statue of David, Accademia Gallery

The next day, we visited Museo Nazionale del Bargello to see Donatello's and Verrocchio's statue of David, then we went to Santa Croce to see more paintings and statues.
This was the day when I needed to buy new trainers from H&M in Florence because my shoes was proper getting soaked into.

9th February 2018

We went to The Brancacci Chapel to see the fresco painting The Tribute Money which was created by Masaccio.
It was a brilliant experience but we had to be silent within  the building.

Before and after visiting the Brancacci Chapel, me and few of my friends went on a shopping spree, finding gifts for our families, friends and new stuff for ourselves.
It was such a good day, especially the weather is just great, it was warm and the sunshine came out.

Brandy Melville. I would like to buy their clothes if I get the chance, seems a good shop.

More artwork on the posts

10th February 2018

We make our way back to Pisa Airport and take the plane back to the UK! Thoughts in my head are saying "I don't want to leave Florence"

I hope you all enjoyed looking through this blogpost about Florence. For those who asked if I had enjoyed the trip, thank you for asking, I did have a good time there. I would recommend on visiting Florence if you haven't been before. 
Thank you and sorry if I haven't posted in a long time!
C x